Now I know

It took sometime,
It took a lot of thought,
It took a lot of pain
It took a lot of forgiveness.

The sorrow you caused me
The abused you did,
The thoughts of me vindictively you,
Now I know, the truth.

The years I had to go through,
With nothing but hating you,
The suffering got stronger
But now I forgive you.

What it took me to forgive you?
Some people may ask
But the saying,
"You don't know how much you love someone until you lose it" is true.

You're sick now,
My brother is sick also,
Now I know this
I may never forgive myself to hate you the years I did.

Fred, my baby brother and sister, and you
Got into a car crash
And Fred lost his job and now you'll may not have a Christmas,
I don't think I can forgive myself.

The time that I told myself I hated you
Could have been spent
Talking to you on the phone
Telling you I love you and that I'm sorry that it didn't work out.

But instead
I couldn't bare talking to you
Couldn't bare the pain
And Now I know the truth.

I'm sorry for vindictively you
I'm sorry for now calling you and wishing that you would get better.
I just didn't understand this until now.

I don't understand
The things you did to me
I guess no one does.
But I do believe that you should never hate because if you don't forgive in time you may regret it,

I regret for hating my own mother now,
I regret for stop talking to her,
I may not want to live with her again,

But Now I know,
That I love you with all my heart and soul,
That I care for you like
A daughter should,
And that I forgive you,

From the pain you caused me
From the heart breaking I have
From the loving you should show to me
I forgive you from it all.