U Cant Lose What You Never Had

We didn't last,
But my feelings were strong,
You weren't really interested,
But i still tried for so long,

It wasn't even funny
How i wanted you so bad,
You seemed perfect,
Even if you sometimes made me sad,

Girls always called you,
I kept the anger within,
I didn't want to look stupid,
& let my anger win,

I know you weren't mine,
To get jealous of,
We just had a little thing,
Nothing close to love,

But it still hurts me,
Despite how i lie,
I cant stop the feelings,
No matter how much i try,

I'm sorry if its annoying,
I really am,
I wish i didn't feel like this,
If only you could understand,

I know i wasn't much to you,
Just a short fling,
Ive accepted the fact,
That I didn't really mean anything,

Now we talk as friends,
To you nothing more,
And i always sit and wonder,
About how it was before,

But you cant really loose someone,
You never really had from the start,
I wish it wasn't like this,
That I’d found a way to your heart …

* think this is kinda bad, but anyhow*