I thought we'd be friends forever

Last year was so fun we were all so close and every day was the same routine, going to French with T and D and with a hug off to 1st period. by the end of that year i was struggling...silently and i finally told you, i spilled my heart to you and told you that i had befriended the knife...but you betrayed me and left me in the dark as the year ended and summer became i called to see what was left, you said we don't like you anymore, you're not a good person...that hurt so much and the pain just continued but now i look back on your friendships that you've kept without me and I'm so happy that I've found others who love me for me...i have tried to forgive you for the pain and betrayal and yet i can't you'll never leave my heart but lord girls i was always there for you, day or night but when i told you you left that is something i think of every day...why did you leave???