Addiction

U sat there one day,
tell me its a lie,
u sat there one day saying not to cry,
u told me that somethings would change,
u said that the stuff in the house was gonna be rearranged,
i didn't want to believe it,
u started to do it again,
what u said u wouldn't to,
u just did it again.

U said you'd stop drinking,
u said that u would stop,
but how can i believe you,
when all u do is lie,
my mom is in the other room,
she says that its true,
the man that i thought was my dad,
i making me feel blue,
i want to shake him and say,
why did u have to do this on my birthday?
He said he was sorry,
he said that he is done,
but how can i believe him,
looking at all hes done,
he leaves me with that look,
that look that says I'm sorry,
i want to say its OK,
but i its not OK.

He moved out of the house,
he left me just like that,
the only person i could talk to ,
is gone just like that,
i want him to say hes sorry,
for ruining my life,
i want him to say that this is just a little fight,
he says to me instead instead,
that hes gonna go to rehab,
to get better instead,
he leaves me one last thing,
a picture of him and me,
i look at the picture every night,
wishing that this couldn't be.

your out of rehab now,
u said that it is gone,
the addiction u crave,
your now telling my mom,
she doesn't believe what u said,
she thinks that its a lie,
just like u said before,
i think your gonna die,
u look at me and tell me that every things OK,
i want to believe u i really do,
but something inside me is telling me that I'm through,
I'm tired of all the lieng,
i don't want to get hurt,
if u could change the past,
this all would me a dream.

U come in to the house,
we talk about this thing,
u said that u cant help it,
but now i know your lieing,
its back to rehab again,
u hurt me one more time,
u look at me and tell me,
that your sorry and your through,
then u go out side,
and i saw what all my friends went through,
u finally stopped the drinking,
but now u have something more,
u start to smoke,
I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE,
i want u to tell me,
that every things OK,
but something in my heart,
is telling me to go away,
i love u and u know that,
but something i have to say,
is that i wish u would stop smoking,
because i don't want u to die.

u sat there one day,
tell me its a lie,
i love u forever and ever,
i just don't want u to die,
i write this poem to tell u,
all the shit that i went through,
i don't want u to feel bad,
because we never lost what we had,
i learned how to forgive,
i learned that its right,
the thing i don't get ,
is why don't u talk to your wife,
i know that she is mean,
but all she wants to tell u,
is that your dieing!

MY DAD WENT through THIS AND I JUST WANTED TO GET THIS HEARD!