As i watch people love and smile i just cry inside because im numb, i can't feel anything every tear i cry is just a trophy of my lose i want to smile, to love but instead i grip the knife, i see the red slowly inch down my arm and feel the pain slowly wash away for a second, it's like pure bliss at that moment the pain goes away and the cut replaces it...i told you i had stopped but i did it yet again, im sorry...with all my heart i wish that i could stop but i can't its too hard...i wish i could smile again.
