How everything stopped

Its 12-o-clock
in the morning
i can't sleep
i just got off
the phone with you
and you said
"man I'm lucky
to have you
and stupid to have
to let you go"
i said "so its gonna
be like that?"
you said "baby
its best"
all i could say was
"no best means us
together and not apart"
so now i guess
I'm gonna end my life
because of "whats best"
i don't get why you
had to leave me all
alone...
i grabbed my razor
and slit a cut along
my wrist after a
while i go numb
and i can't feel the
pain anymore
then since i was still
here i went to my
dresser and dug
through my drawers
looking for my pills
when i found them
i dumped 15 pills
in my hand
and by 3 at a time
i swallowed them all...
now as i lay here
on my bed
at my last few minutes
i think of you
and say
"what happened?"
i see nothing
and it's getting harder
and harder to breathe...
I see blackness and
blood on the wall
and with the blood
it spells out
S-U-I-C-D-E
all my friends
are spinning
through my mind
i get dizzy and it gets
worse...
as I'm slowly
fading away i
quietly whisper
with my last gasping
breathe...
"i hate you,
you made me do this"
and all of a sudden a big gust of pain hit me
and i stopped
breathing...