How I feel inside?

Collecting feelings all this years,
i don't know what feelings I had collect.
Sometimes in a dark I'm trying to find out am I really happy?
Although I have some strange feelings in side my soul which disturb me when I'm breathing.
Sometimes I think how I'm maybe happy with tears in my eyes or with sadness in my heart.
Maybe I'm just looking someone that can tell me how I really feel inside!