When I'm Not There

I know I'm acting different, it shows,
It's because you won't tell me, what the people around you know,
I know you're hiding something, don't ask why,
I would tell you, but I have no motivation to try.

What do you do, when I'm not there?
It feels like your ignoring me, you probably don't care,
You cut our conversations short, and say you have to go,
What is so damn important, that you won't let me know?

Why do you keep leaving me, wondering every night?
Why can't I tell you how I feel, without causing a fight?
Is this even worth, the wait and the pain?
When I can't say what's on my mind, it shoots through every vein.

I don't know whats with you, or even if I want to,
I don't know if I ever will, or if I have the guts to ask you,
Are you doing something, that would ruin it all?
Is that why you hardly talk to me, when you're the one to call?

I don't know what you're doing, but this feeling's hard to beat,
How can I be sure, that you will never cheat?