Masocistic In Nature

A soothing release
It felt so right
The beautiful sensation
Blotting out my sight

The scars that it leaves
Will eventually fade
After I die
And my body has decade

They all think its wrong
I keep it out of the light
Thought what else is living
But one painful fight

Masochistic in nature
The hurts taken over my mind
Searching for something
But the pains all I find

I’m not a quitter,
I won’t answer deaths calls
Nor will I live my life bitter
Behind invisible walls

I’ll enjoy every minute
I’ll watch the blood flow
And when you people come around
I wont let it show……