Goodbye

I’m not lying to you
I believe what I've said
So really it all is true
At least in this f'd up head

Come with me
I truly need you by my side
If not, please set me free
I will never admit that I lied

If I admitted I was wrong
It would admit what I am worth
And it wouldn't be long
Before I could no longer hide behind mirth

The truth would kill
My wicked soul
Taking its fill
Eating me whole

I hang on to this lie
Because its all that I contain
I have to deny
Or admit I’m insane

I like the picture I've painted
IT IS MY TRUTH
Even if it is tainted
You can’t blame it on youth

No matter how old I get
It’s all that I am
Do you get the point yet
I know it’s a scam

So if you don’t like it
Just let me be
Or if you truly think me unfit
Just set me free

I swear
You’ll get appreciation
As my life slips away
I just couldn’t bear
could initiation
I had no place to stay

....goodbye....