Overdose

I’m sitting here at home
Alone and in my room
I soon get an itch to roam
To get out of this gloom

I take a couple pills
To take away the pain
Ride my bike over these hills
And try n get to town b4 I go insane

My legs begin to ache
I pop a couple more
As my muscles start to shake
I’ve never taken so much b4

The bottles halfway gone
My thoughts begin to slip
I lay down on the lawn
And ride this heavy trip

But soon I am back
And theres still nothing left to do
My minds still a bit outa whack
and I can only think of u

I go home and I call
You actually pic up
I try to stall
As I lift my cup

And take some more relief
I know I’m close to overdosing
But my mind it floods with grief
And now I hear u posing

As if what we had was real
If only I could believe it
But I know its not how u feel
So I take another bottle in a fit

And the room begins to reel
I tell u goodbye
As my sanity begins to peel
Away in harsh shards of “why”

The blackness takes me
They find me with the phone in hand
How could this be
I just don’t understand

I wasn’t supposed to wake
They smile down from above
My life was mine to take
death was my true love

And now I’m stuck with the shame
Of a failed death
Left with nothing but my name
And cursed to my last breath…..