My first time cutting

My first time cutting myself at first i didn't feel a thing,
Everyone asked me why,i said i thought it was love,he thought it was just a fling

The blood flowed out like there was no tomorrow,
yet there was no getting rid of the horrible sorrow

the blade rusted in blood fell to the floor,
i started to feel the pain and could take no more

the tears rolled down to my dry chapped lips,
i wanted to die,i was loosing my grip

a promised myself id keep holding on,
i didn't know if i was ready t be gone

the pain started to fade and my eyes began to close
i didn't want to feel the heartache that once again arose