I blame myself

”Yes” is all I had to say
and things would be different today
You tried to be understanding
It’s myself I’m blaming

You said goodbye 4 months ago
But the truth which I hid, is I
Lost you way before this
Denial is such a powerful thing
Made me hold on to something
That did not exist

I feel like I’m drowning
I feel like I’m dying
I’m broken up
Ready to give up
But you’ll never see the tears
I cry every night

Every time I think of you I cannot breathe
It’s killing me slowly
Every day is the same
I'm not sure what to do
Not sure I’ll pull through
I blame myself for losing you

--tell me what you think