Unknow

My heart beats a thousand times,
My breath quickens as my stomach unwinds.
Anticipating what I'm going to do,
I cry not knowing who to turn to.
Deep down inside I'm so scared my palms are sweaty and i am in fear.
Pacing back and forth hoping it will put me at ease,
I feel like I'm about to die from some horrible disease.
My mind spitting out a thousand thoughts,
Each one telling me a different story of how i will fall.
My knees grow week and i am unable to see
i try to hold my self with my arms but it looks like it will never be.
As i lay with no strength to even cry my body shakes and i know why.
I make a fist with my right as tight as i can,
Trying my hardest to not reveal my over done plan.
Everything starts to go black my eyes close and my hand opens,
There lies something so little but can take a lot.,
A simple razor blade that went to far.