Guilty Truths

I told her I love her forever
She told me the same
But now it will be never
The love left as quickly as it came

Now I’m left with the words I said
Buried in the caves of my head
I love you always
Can I forget I said this phrase?

Forced to remove past thoughts and feelings
Emotions eternal, endlessly binding
Pretending I never said them
Acting as though eternity has met its end

I am ‘spose to act as if forever has passed?
Am I spose to make sure infinity didn’t last?
Guilty either loving or being done with
Am I supposed to feel that love is a myth?

I feel so strange as her friend
because it was not meant to end
Love expressed, sworn not to bend

Yet I feel the love is disappearing
They say that is called healing
But I don’t find this fate appealing

I feel awkward letting go
Like I don’t think it should be so
But she’s left truly, I know

So I have nothing but to let
My truths becomes lies
Let go of feelings with a simple sigh
Time to live now, with no regret

I write this confused rhyme
I hold on for still more time
I should be gone from all the past
All that was said to last
Binding myself to her
All I do is lure
More pain
I need to gain.
A new forever