No friend to help

When i was in feelings of despair
my friends were never there
so now i don't consider them friends
they sat there meant to b there till the end

but they wern't there in the beginning
in the race of life I'm never winning
but i will not loose
i have no choice but to choose

sadness,madness and badness
i wish they would just believe me
then they would finally c
life should b about equality