These dreams haunt me.
Everywhere I go memories is what I see.
Living in a world of saddness.
Residing in a world of maddness.
All because of you.
Now there's nothing I can do.
To escape the pain.
Slowly I can feel my love drain.
My love for you.
But now it's on display for someone to look through.
Mom I loved you with everything I had.
Mom I see you and I'm all of a sudden sad.
You took my shining smile.
When I laugh it takes awhile.
My tears represent my life of hatred.
These tears represent my life that was wasted.
You said I didn't have to worry anymore.
But plans changed when your boyfriend walked through the door.
Letting him hit me.
Right there in open sight to see.
You didn't do anything.
So I had to wait to see what time would bring.
And you wonder why I love you no more?
Because you left me defenseless almost dead on the floor.
He used to beat me when I was asleep.
Now these scars run deep.
Scars from that belt.
The one that made me melt.
I couldn't move.
There was nothing I could do.
He hit me with a belt and chairleg.
After he got done with his beer keg.
My two sisters held me high.
Even when I thought I was going to die.
But you couldn't do anything and that's what makes me cry.
My pain meant nothing to you.
You left me with nowhere to turn to.
He doesn't do it anymore.
If he does I'll leave him on the floor.
My hits will be last.
I'll leave him to feel my wrath.
I was your only son.
And now look at what you've done.
I was only 5.
You left me barely alive.
My sisters watched with pain.
I tried to get out but the blows hit me like rain.
I couldn't do anything.
You left me dangling on a string.
Now my life is mine.
Where were you this time...
