Why like this

I hate my life
I hate my dreams
I hate my future, past
and everything in between

I hate the fact that I cant be with you
I hate the fact I cant live my life
I don't understand what happening to me
I want to let you go, I want to feel free

Oh there is something
in side of me that cant let you go
I feel so pressured, so tired and unfree
and shouldn't feel for you if you don't want me

Why did you have to go that way
Why did you do what you did
Why did I let my self get here
all because of you and your greed

I wish I could finish this poem with happiness
but that hasn't happened yet
and it probably never will
If I stay depressed, I'm going to
end my life, and leave him with guilt