Hurting me

All my emotions taking control
holding me back and not letting us grow,
it doesn't help you calling me by her name
the way you touch me did you touch her the same,
when your with me do you wish your with her
all of these emotions how did they occur

i feel like a ghost that no one can see
all because you don't wanna be with me,
you can say you do but i no you don't
you can say y'all love me but i know you won't,
i should be smiling so why am i frowning
pushing me under thats why I'm drowning,

your hurting me so much inside
i can't run i can't hide,
you don't mean to make me feel the way i do
but its killing me inside and its cos I'm with you,
you do things that you wouldn't want me to do
why do it to me what have i done to you,

so now its not just your ex i think about
its her to and i just wanna scream and shout,
your putting a knife in and twisting it slowly
i would be better of even if I'm lonely,
from the day i got with you Ive took some stick
and it even made me physically sick,

if you hadn't cheated before
flirted with my mates and whatever more,
people wouldn't say the things they do
but your not bothered cos they never say it to you,

Ive took so much stuff i don't think i can take no more
but i honestly love you and my heart is sore,
i really don't no what to do
cos deep down i wanna stay with you,