Escape Route

I have found an escape route
A path to get from you
A road to get away from this
From this pain you put me through.

I've tried before but I am too scared
If you find me it will be so worse
Why did I have to meet you at all
Did I deserve this dreaded curse?

All I am is your punchbag
You beat me black and blue
I have to make the excuses you know
No one will believe the truth.

Why is though sometimes you are nice
Somedays I love you so much
But other days I loathe you
Because you hurt me such.

I cannot bear your torturing
Cannot stand this anymore
The thing is I also cannot bear
Leaving and shutting the door.

Although I'm ashamed to admit it
I still love you when you're not here
But I will follow this exit plan
I know a short cut there.

I hope that when you find me
You will not laugh at me
It's just I cannot think of
Another way to be free.

So I will swallow these tablets
And escape the pain you cause
Goodbye and remember I love you
I just don't love your flaws.