Weakness

Lets, fly, fly my wings
I'm ready
I'm ready for my journey up into the sky
hoping for a better life
and better death
loosing my way
the only thing screaming now is me
to this light thats shining on me
I'm trying to catch
to try to spread the wings
i borrowed
so hard
weakness
dizzy
floating in this bath
this water is my tears, its running down the wall
its running through my veins
just waiting
scared

i cannot move my body

seing myself falling
not flying
so maybe I'm not ready...to fly

ready for falling

so here i am breaking
is this what you want?

silence

weakness

is this how its supposed to be?
silence now under these waters
its so heavy these waves
I'm chained to the sides
trying to breath under the bubbles
silence this
one by one
I'm laying stuck in this mud of this.
no ripples now

hush

I'm breathing in I'm pretty sure
I'm breathing out now I'm pretty sure
i can hear this I'm pretty sure
i can see clear
through this my waving hair

so this is what it feels like

i can reach
this is where i can finally Breathe
is that OK
this is where i can finally be
is that OK?
so that is where i layed
i layed
and i layed
i shivered then flinched
as i was swallowed whole in the shadow of my bathroom
of life
existance
weakness

i think I'm sleeping now
so I'm fine now
just let me be for a while
do not disturb the bubbles
because this girl's dreams may be found

this is my weakness