My Not So Perfect Life

I get up every morning put a fake smile on my face
What you see on the outside isn't really what I'm feeling
Why do you yell at me
Why do you make me feel so bad
I want to hurt you so i hurt myself instead
People don't understand
They think i have a perfect life
The needle tares my skin
Then it starts to sting
But bad memories still haunt me
I show you the cuts and see you cry
I know it hurts everyone around me...to see me do this
People don't know i cry myself to sleep
They don't know how sad i am
They don't know what I've been through
I love it when the needle tares my skin
It starts to sting
The blood runs down my arm
Then i look at the scars
Ugly reminders of horrible memories
Ugly reminders that will be there forever
Why do i do this to myself
Isn't there a way for me to deal
To deal with my problems

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