Tonight, Suicide I Will Learn

I'm speechless
I cannot hide from this pain
I'm full of bitterness
This feeling I have I cannot explain

I try as hard as I can
But I feel as though I end exactly Where I began

Tears fall like rain
At the sound of your name

Just to once again see your face
Would atleast give me one glimpse
Of grace

I tremble at the sound of your Voice
I wish I were like others so Instead I would rejoice

Instead I am filled with fear
My eyes fill up
And down my face comes one big Tear

I can no longer stand this pain
That's why
Now as the rain starts pouring down
No one will ever again have to see Me frown

I am now going to leave this world
And never again return
Tonight suicide I will learn

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