Please Just Give Up

Please don’t continue lying to me
I know the truth that you hide inside
I can see it whenever I look into your eyes
So why can’t you admit it to me already?
I know that you’re disappointed in me
I know that you think I’m a failure
Don’t you think I know I’m a waste of a life?
Not that you could ever really call it that
You don’t see how guilty I feel every time I make a new cut
Trust me I know I’m hurting you when I go back to it
If there was another way to deal with everything I’d do it
So don’t be afraid to confess to me what you really think
Because what you say won’t hurt my feelings
You learn to get used to it when people constantly tell you
But none of them see how hard I try every single day
So many times I’ve tried to stop cutting and throw away the knife
And all the times I’ve tried to beat this depression
Nothing works, it never worked, it always came back
I’m well and truly done I don’t want to go on in this life
So please just give up on me instead of pushing me on
And if I have to live at least let me do it my way
And if that’s by cutting and crying myself to sleep every night
If that’s by letting depression know that he’s finally won then fine
Won’t you let me be who I’m obviously destined to be in life?

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