Why cant i

Why cant i talk to people,
when the ask me if i am ok.
why do i say yes,
well all i feel is depressed everyday.

why do i act fine,
when i no i am really not.
i block out the questions and comments,
thinking i can cope with the lot.

why cant i be normal,
and have a happy life.
why cant i express my feelings,
without resorting to the knife.

that shiny blade that helps me so,
to hide my problems and what i fear,
i really wish that i could stop,
for the peole i hold dear.

why cant i stop these thoughts on death,
why is it i want to die.
and can you tell me exactly,
why my life feels like a lie.

i really need someone to talk to,
someone to relate to me.
someone who cares enough to realise i want to be free.

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