Now... You left.

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Now... You left.

I remember how it used to be.
Before you left.
Before I had this pain that eats away at my heart... my soul.
I'm tired of crying these tears.
I have no more left to cry.
With my every single hope shattered,
The pain of reality is all I feel.
I know what it's like to walk along the lonely streets of dreams.
No one else is here.
In this world, I am alone.

-I am alone-

You! You were the only person who truly understood me and now...
You left!
You left me here to wallow in pain and in fear.
To wish for something... ANYTHING to get me through this!
So I've lied a thousand lies to cover my inner thoughts,
My most sincere emotions.
I've hidden them well.
They all believe me when I say I've moved on...
I haven't.
When you died, a part of me died with you.
My hopes, my laughter, my happiness-- they died with you.

-I'm so sorry-

But these liquids! Oh these burning liquids!
They are my only comfort since you've left.
As night devours the bright day, the thoughts I have all disappear.
My fears drown within the intoxicating fluids.

I need you to know that I don't want to be like this!
I know this isn't what you'd want for my life!
I know you look down on me but please,
Please don't be disappointed.
One day, I'll be with you and we'll both be happy.

-please help me-

I miss you.
I miss you more than anything and I would give the world to hear your voice once more.
Do you know that?
As much as I wish you could answer me,
I know you can't.
But I hope you'll listen.
I pray every day that you're happy.
And I pray every day that you didn't suffer.

-I need you-

To help me remember the good times we had!
I can't take anymore of this emptiness.
I can't take the horrible loss I feel.
Two years have passed since your death.
Why can't I move on?
Why do I still cry myself to sleep at night,
Wishing.
Wishing you were still here?
You're not in my reality and yet even in my dreams,
I still can't see your face.

-I hate this-

I can't let go.
I'm so afraid I'll forget you.
But I will continue on with my life.
I will try to be happy.
And I will try to free myself of this pain.
The pain I get just thinking about you.
Did you ever know how much I loved you?
How much happiness you brought into my life?
You made my life worth living.
And I just needed you to know...

-I miss you-