He will not care

I know he loves me
and i love him too
but its not enough to know
because of what it is i do

it hurts him too much
when he sees my pain
i know he wants to help me
but his efforts are in vein.

i never want to leave him
but for now i have no choice
i can no longer stand there
and never find my voice

i cut so deep it's numb
these cuts will never heal
wether in my heart or on my arms
their pain i will no longer feel

i never wanted to hurt him
that was never my plan
but i never meant to fall in love
i never thought he would take my hand

now i have to end it
i have to hurt him to help him
i have my own solution
but to do it now would break him

if he hates me he wont care
about how i end my life
i love him too much to say goodbye
and once again i long for my knife

'im sorry i don't love you
i don't think i ever will'
i turn and walk away
my heart i have just killed

i had to walk away
i had to hide my tears
i look at the ocean this long night
and see my hearts worst fears

i am alone again
this is what i had wanted
but it hurts so badly
i know i will forever be haunted

so now i am free
himself he will not blame
for my early demise
to him will seem a game

he will not care
and that hurts more than life
but i did this so i can end it
one last time i grab the knife