WhY LiVe?

Here I am once again
All alone but nothings new
You love me, I love you
So why does live still hurt so bad
With no one here beside me
All I can do is cry and cry
Everything I do is wrong
Never right
I would usually turn to a razor
A knife but I promised never again
But still I wish so badly for the end
Eternal sleep, eternal happiness
I would give anything to hear you say 'I love you'
Things have changed
I'm so insecure
So scared of loosing you
Your all I have left
Why'd she have to tell you
This time last week we were on the phone
Talking and Laughing
There wasn't a care in the world
but you don't know what it's like
like to have everyone you love take her side
Listen to all her problems, wipe away her tears
You don't know what it's like to sit all alone
To put on a fake smile while you watch them laugh a reall laugh
it tears away at my heart
It makes me wish for so much more
More of what I can never have
Love and happiness
Am I ever going to be good enough
Sitting alone staring at the knife
With which I wish to end my life
For when there is no hope left
What else can be done?
the wooden handle in my hand
metal to my chest
I want to die
But you walk in
I drop the knife
fall to my knees and cry
You ask me why?
I say why live?