u need 2 change same to some, jus letting u no. i no wat u mean, and helping other pl is a gr8 thing but u really do need 2 put urself b4 others, i no its hard but u really cant help them if u cant help urself, i do the same thing and altho i ask myself y, i continue 2 do it, nothing s gonna stop me but i hav accepted that n i like it that way now, u sound like u really need 2 help u. take a look around im sure there wil b sum1 there, u jus dont realise it