These pills

These pills,
all lined up in a row.
i i sit and think,
rocking to and frow.

shall i end it,
get it over and done.
i do not no if i can do it,
my life has only just begun.

but all the times,
i have sat and cried.
thinking of what to do,
i cannot take this rules to which i have to abide.

how many shall i take,
can i swallow that many?
will it work?
what effect will it have if any?

i want to die,
but can i do it?
i cant take no more,
this is not the way i want to go i have to admit.

i take them one by one,
let them slip away.
i no i have taken to many,
and so i sit and pray.

if i do not wake,
i am sorry to everyone.
and please forgive me,
for i have been outdone.

please comment it means alot to me