I Am Ugly

No one understands me
My fear
My pain
I see them stare at me with disgust
I have spent so many nights crying in front of the mirror thinking what have i done to deserve this torture
I have done nothing to be treated this way
Too many nights have i been haunted in my sleep
Why can i not have pleasant dreams
Why do i have to be constantly reminded of the way i look
Why has God cursed me
I have been told i am special and that i have the opportunity to see the world in other ways people can not
I am not a child
I want to see the world the same way as everyone else
I want to be able to look into the mirror and truly look at myself rather then glimpse and look away
People say it matters whats on the inside that counts
But i don't see whats on the inside every morning
I just see ugly
I see me
No on can change that
Don't mis up my mind
I shall live in shame
forever