Wishing i were nearer

Looking in the mirror
wishing i were nearer
what have i become
i am so numb
slash me here slash me there
i am bruised everywhere
mirror shattereds
nothings matters
only the hatred that lies in my soul
i will never again be whole
i have lost total control
somebody give me air
this suffering life isn't fair
can't you see I'm dying
i wish i were flying
i despise this place
and i hate my face
why must i see
i hate being me
when does it stop
why can't i be on top
why am i as low as it gets
why do i have all these stupid fits
I'm always fighting
and i can't stop writing
i wish i were something great
and me..nobody hate
everything is cuts and pain
and i hate that I'm the one insane
why can't somebody help me out
and then maybe I'll never doubt
why am i the one to blame
why do i always lose the game
everything is put on my shoulder
and my heart grows colder
i get weaker by the hour
pretty soon i wont have no power
one day someone will find me dead
and there will be a hole threw my head
then will everyone here my cries?
will you see my painful eyes?
i hope that if i go
everyone would miss me so
and don't worry about me
cause when that day comes my soul will be free