I’m not gonna lie to you anymore. I want to be with you, I always have. I know there’s no chance for me, but I’m sick of pretending that love is the only thing I feel for you. I feel love, compassion, empathy, desire, pining. I’m sick of lying to you. I’m sick of lying to myself. Going out, and dating. Actually thinking “She’s the one.†Actually thinking that there could be someone else out there for me. It’s you, I know it. And while subconsciously you can’t understand, if you look deep inside of yourself, maybe you will see what I’m seeing. Feel what I’m feeling. No matter who I’m with, I always find myself wishing it were you. I now it’s terrible, but it’s true. I try to convince myself that I’m over you, but it’s all a lie. After my relationship is over, I always realize that it’s you I truly want to be by my side. I’m sick of lying to you. I’m sick of lying to myself. I’m sick of thinking the wrong thing about everything. So, I will seal this with a kiss, and hope for you to feel for me, the deep longing I feel for you.
