Wake Up Call

I try to fit in
But they push me away
I try to be nice
But I just can't be that way

I try and try again
But nothings increasing except my lonely soul
Things getting confusing
My mind can't take control

Listening to the wind
The air flowing through my hair
I close my eyes
I see myself drowning, gasping for air

I open them up
I'm okay
But what if I wasn't
And I had something to say

My mind goes blank
Shocked of what lies inside my head
The image of me dying
Dying in my bed