I'm sorry

I no I worried you,
And I’m sorry,
But these problems I have,
I need to work through.

I no I could tell you,
I trust you with my heart,
But I am ashamed of what has happened,
In the past.

The last time I went through this,
I nearly died,
So I decided to try,
Suicide.

That didn’t work,
I soon found out,
And now every scratch,
Has to be well thought out.

My parents ask me,
Is it self inflicted,
But I can’t tell them,
So I make excuses.

Now my thoughts,
Are running towards,
My only escape door.

This escape door,
You see,
Is the easy way out,
It causes pain,
And leaves no doubt.

But I know,
That I can’t,
Because I’ll miss you so,
So I guess life needs another go.

Please comment!
it means a lot to me!!

Monica