From a Wreck, to a Mother.

When I was 27 years old,
I found out I was with child...
Lord I wasn't mother material,
I was a bar fly, a drunk, and wild.

Terrified, upset, and scared for its life,
I didn't know what to do,
I hid the fact from everyone,
Hoping no one else knew.

Then I heard your tiny heart beating,
For the very first time,
Instantly I wanted to protect you,
A sweet child, I could call mine.

Three months later I found out,
You were a little girl,
What joy I felt inside myself,
To be able to bring you into this world.

Every day I felt you grow,
I felt you move and shift,
The bond by just carrying you in me,
Is when motherhood hit.

I realized then all the things I'd done,
Was really not important,
The beer, the drugs, the parties,
Was wasted money spent.

My main goal was to be a good mom,
And make you always feel safe,
I had to turn my self around,
And get a little faith.

The day you were born was by far,
The most happiest day of my life,
Even tho your father was not there,
I was a single mom, not a wife.

Ten little fingers, Ten little toes,
Tiny little eyes, and a cute little nose.

Wriggling and yawning, sleeping in peace,
You were a daughter, a grandchild,
and a beautiful niece.

Times have changed for me and my life,
You became first, no matter the price.

To be a good mom, is all I want now,
I know we will make it, in this world somehow.

I gave you the chance to live,
To me there was no other choice,
And to think of all the joy I'd missed,
If I'd not let you have a voice.

No one said it would ever be easy,
But the blessings you give every day,
Makes me sure I made the right choice,
And I am no longer afraid.

You will have a better life than mine,
I will make sure of that...
I wasn't mother material at first,
But I am now, and thats a fact.

I love you Savannah, I'm proud to me your mom,
You gave me meaning to my life,
And kept me from doing wrong.

I owe more to you, than you'll ever know,
How I'll ever repay you, I really don't know.

Knowing your safe, knowing you are here,
My precious child, that I hold so dear.

Be careful things you choose in life,
Some things you might try to hide,
But always remember in me, I promise,
You will always be able to confide.