Tears in my Eyes

I loved a boy
I was sure he loved me back
I would think of him all the time
It was sleep I would lack.

My heart was filled with joy
I only cried happy tears
There was no reason to be sad
For because of him I had no fears.

What people thought
I did not really care
But to the world
It was him they could not share.

But to much of my dismay
I came home one fatal day
Your face was stunned
You had no shirt
In that second I had never felt such pain and hurt
Such a beautiful girl
With such a nice smile
But all along you were in denial.

I did not know why you did it
You said we were forever
But that other girl had your kiss
Why would God treat me like this?

Every time I think of you
It makes me feel really sick
I run and get lost in my knife really quick
As I start to cut I don’t understand
Im going insane
It is all because you said her name.

But I want to tell you something
Now I have grown and learned
Maybe love is not for everyone
And some people just cannot learn

But as I sit here I want to let you know
That I do not love you
You did not mean anything thing to me
Now do you see?

So someone please explain to him
And tell him that I do not love him
I never want to see him again
Tell him I wont miss him
Tell him I want him to die
But do not say I said this with tears in my eyes.

Amanda McMeekin
8/12/04

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