Not Even Ordinary

I look like such a loser,
am I a picky chooser,
I know I'll never make it,
I know I'm gonna break it,
I'm not even ordinary,
it's strange and it's scary,
I'm not special, I'm below normal,
should I dress dorky, or maybe formal,
I don't think it will help me out,
I'm not even ordinary without a doubt,
so why am I even here today,
why wont I just go away,
I'm not sure the reasons why,
but believe me I sure do try,
I'm just not even ordinary,
I'm weak and I'm wary...