The game I'm in
Is a hard one to play
When you know you cant win
Why even stay
Picking up the cards, all six
That I was dealt
These emotions are all a mix
Pushing away things I think I felt
I look at them one by one
Contemplating the words
This game isn't fun
Its cruel and absurd
A Grey blue word with four letters
Spells Lies across the top
They were supposed to make life better
Not make my heart stop
Next one is even worse than the first
Looking at the blood red title
Lets me know of my eternal curse
Sending me deeper into denial
The word cut drips down
Making me look at my arms
The sight makes my soul drown
Showing misery and all of its charms
The next card has trapped printed neatly across
The restraints on my soul tighten
When I think of the loss
My hard grip on life starts lighten
My glance wanders to the next word of fiery red
Envy, something I know all too well
For all the words my beloved boyfriend has said
And the smiles and laughs that people just wont sell
The fifth card has hate on top of pain
A hate for all people and their coldheartedness
They send me feelings that make me insane
I just don't want this
I look at the last card with much resent
Happiness is at the top, mocking me
For that is a feeling I never could have spent
Its something unknown I cant feel or see
I look up and stare
Straight into my opponents eyes
They both look so aware
As if anticipating my blood red cries
Death sits to my right
His boney fingers clenching my arm
Whispering to give up the fight
I'll feel no more harm
Deception to my left with her cheating smile
Her words to the point and cold
She laughs and says I should play for awhile
I don't like what I'm told
So I fold my hand down and push away the pain
Give up the game
Slide a razor across my vein
And hug Death, so hes the one to blame
My grasp gets tight
As my blood drips its last drop
I forfeit this great fight
I'm suddenly happy, I'm suddenly on top
For when the last drop of blood
Hits the cold floor
My heart stops with a thud
I'm happy for the first time, its something I adore
The blood runs away
Along with the pain
No more to stay
This acid rain
So the game starts over, a new feelings felt
A new player with the same old two
The cards are different, a new hand is dealt
I see the new players face, that player is you
