In a Box (re-post)

In a box
there's a memory
hidden away
meant for just me

this memory
recalls the days
i watched myself
fade away

all my guilt
and all my lies
all the scars
lacing my thighs

every smile
and every tear
every time
i didn't want to be here

it all turned to dust
and was swept away
that's how i got
where i am today

i have no feelings
i have no friends
i only have this box
and the message it sends

it tells me to remember
that i am alone
and clips of that memory
to me, are shown

i see my mistakes
the bad choices i made
i see my legs
and a shining blade

i watch myself cut
then i watch myself try
to hold back the tears
when i just want to cry

i visualize betrayal
and sneaking around
now i realize
that, to this memory, i am bound

but it's all inside the box
this past i've locked away
and the box will not be opened
until the memory replays

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