Fading

The last of my smile fades from my face
As I see the tears that fall from your eyes.
I know this can't be good, and as you come nearer
Your pain is inevitable.
I look on in disbelief as the tears just keep on coming.
I've never seen you cry.

This is the first time I've ever been frightened of you.
I don't want to hear the words forming on your lips
And I don't want to feel this pain.
I can't help but wonder where we went wrong
Because I was sure that things were perfect.
Or I wished they were.

With one touch of your hand, I turn away
Your sugarcoated words penetrate deeper than the truth.
I hold out my broken heart in my hands
To show you the mess you've made of me.
Your tears haven't ceased, and as mine begin
We finally share one common emotion.

I wanted to be tough and walk away from this unscathed
But that proved to be impossible when I saw you cry.
If you couldn't hold in the pain, I knew I couldn't either
For you have always been stronger than me.
With one last look into your eyes, I see the boy I feel in love with
And I watch him fall apart with your words.

I beg you to hold me, to take back this choice
But I do so silently, my pleading eyes tearing into your soul.
I trusted you with this love of mine, and though you tried
I knew you would not be able to see it through.
So walk away from this I must, and although you love me
I know you had to make this decision.

The pieces of my heart still in my hands
I wipe away the last tear from your eye, and force myself to smile.
I know I am broken, but I try to hold myself together
Just so you will never have to watch me fall apart.
I will pretend to be strong, to lessen your pain
For I love you too much to see you cry.