It has been years since you left
With each second crawling by
Slow as winter fades to spring
When you're eager to touch summer sun.
Each smile passed my way
Along with every unwanted sympathetic look
Pushed half-heartedly aside
To pretend this never happened.
When I glance in the mirror
I wince at the sight of my tattered reflection
New and old slashes cover my wrists
Concealing the once forgotten scars beneath.
Pale and lifeless, bleeding and broken
Hungry for life while starving for death.
An image you created
That only I can see.
Everything is out of order and twisted
My presence still confused
With the absense of your being.
Once rescued from the darkness I breath
I now hold tight to the noose
Which suffocates my thoughts.
Destructive habits surfaced when you left
Removing the barrier that protected me
From the one I cannot face.
Myself.
Yet still I live on, crying crimson tears
Watching life glide by so smoothly
Like this razorblade across my skin.
