** this poem is about a personal experience.. it actually happened to me almost 5 years ago, and for a long time i couldn't remember anything.. I've only started to uncover some of what really happened
**please rate and comment, your input would be greatly appreciated
I'm remembering
i don't know how
i don't know why
but it's coming back
not everything
i don't remember seeing my Grandpa
i don't remember the castle
i don't remember anything that i talked about
but there are broken, chopped fragments
pictures
feelings
i kind of popped out of the top of my head
and floated up to the ceiling
i could see everything
the machines
the doctors and nurses
and i could see my body
lying there
limp
lifeless
dead
i was dead
i wasn't inside it anymore
and then i went away
i went somewhere....
i don't really know where
but i was warm
and safe
and.... i was at peace
for the first time in, 15??
no
the first time in 12 years
i wasn't miserable
i didn't feel like crying
i was content
there was no pain
no fear
i think i was in Heaven
only, i didn't get to stay
i was torn away
ripped out
brought here
where everything hurts again
and it's all just so awful
i thought it was bad before
but that was nothing
now everything is so dark
and cold
and hard
hard, and dark, and cold??
everything i think
everything i feel
everything i AM
this is hell
"i live in hell, cause I've been expelled from heaven"
