"fear, pain, abuse, betrayal..
it's the case of a little girl, whose innocence was shattered by molestation, forcing her to grow up at a very early age.
she sank into a bottomless depression, she couldn't eat, she couldn't sleep, she couldn't stop crying..
it didn't take her long to learn. to learn that no one likes the little girl who doesn't smile, doesn't laugh.. the girl who spends her recesses curled up in the corner, in the fetal position, unable to move, paralyzed by her fears..
so, she became an actress, and began to pretend.
but, it was still there, underneath all the smiles and giggles that everyone fell for.
her level of trust has fallen below, even that of abnormal.
his name was brian.
it's the barely remembered scars of her past that have had the greatest, most lasting effects on this child's behaviour and emotional stability. causing insecurities about herself and the inability to trust any men that come into her life.
it's become a pattern.
everyone who follows betrays and eventually abandons her.
family conflicts, wrong crowds, seeking attention in all the wrong places.
short lived relationships, both friendly and promiscuity..
she started to broaden to the workplace, both school and profession.
a boy- she thought she could trust
attempted rape
more tears, and blood and pain..
all invoking dreams of failure and re-occurring memories of the unbearable past.
with this, she seeks refuge in expressing herself artistically.
not with paint, on a canvas
but with blades, on her own body..
she is drowning in her own insecurities, in her own tears, and in her own blood.
this, sir, is a case in need of immediate attention."
