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by jenni Dec 10, 2004 category : Sadness, depression / about depression
They told me I was too crazy Chucked me from school for being too wild My mummy gave up in dispair on me She said she wished I wasn't her child. She told me when I was a little boy She was happy with me and so proud She said I was gonna be a good man Said I would stand out in the crowd. I found a good way of standing out My mummy said I caused misery But nobody was able to realise I was just angry at what the bullies did to me. When in the days my mummy was happy I was dying inside Every day the bullies would torment But behind my eyes I would hide. It seemed like I was two people An alien inside my own skin And the bullies hated my outer layer So they pushed out the evil from within. So now the monster in me is let lose, And my mummy has given up hope, I do not blame her really But doing this is the only way to cope. So mummy please come to my funeral Even if it's just for the ride, Even if it means when they are mourning You are just yawning inside. I just want to tell you mummy That I didn't mean to hurt you I never wanted to cause pain That was the thing I didn't want to do. I just couldn't help my thinking That I could beat the bullies some day But now I have fulfilled my life And I'm gonna kill myself some way.