Too Much Pain To Not Show

I go to my mothers room
And I start to cry
Its time I told
That I tried to commit suicide

More tears flow
I pull up my sleeves
When my mother cries "Oh no!"
She starts crying too
And she keeps blaming herself shouting "What have I done wrong?!..What did I do?"

I whisper in her ear
"That it was me who started it all"
My life was being crushed, but ti wasn't her fault
I wanted her to know that she was the only one who was there
But then again we never really talked
Not like this
I was too scared

I promised her I would try to not hurt myself
And that I'd be more open with her
Instead of telling her my life sucked and it was never okay
She didn't really get it
So I took a deep breathe and explained it all to her that day

I have no secrets now
I have nothing to hide
Someone now knows
That I tried to commit suicide

*And just to let you know this hasn't happened..I dont' know if it ever will..but this is just a dream come true, when I have the courage to tell*