If there is a god..

If there is a god
Why did he make you die?
Why has he made this pain?
That aches inside my heart

He tore you from me
Took you from my arms
Left me with only memories
I have slipped into the dark

With everyday that passes
The pain only grows more
How could god do this to me?
Why does he want me to suffer?

I would give everything I have
Just to have you by my side
I would swap my own life
Just to let you have yours

And as the nights roll in
I hug a pillow tight
For all day and night long
I need you, where have you gone?

So now I have to leave here
I know you think its wrong
But life is not worth living
If I cannot see with my eyes

I know people will miss me
But I cannot manage it now
So Im coming to join you
High up, in the clouds

If god is angry at me
For ending my own life
Please explain why I did it
That I need you by my side

If there is a god..
He will understand