What should of been

You know each time I saw you
You were dating an unworthy soul
A few times you got engaged,
And I just sat by and did nothing.

I failed you,
I should have helped you,
Like I always wanted to
But I was too afraid of rejection

I couldn't stand a No
So instead of risking No
I took the silent road, hoping
Hoping you would learn

Learn from these prior guys
And notice me standing there
Supporting you, through what I could
But I failed you, not once but twice.

When you graduated I let you slip
I didn't keep track of you.
I faltered, I failed.
Now you have a little girl

When I first heard from your lips
I was surprised, but I was still afraid
Afraid of No, afraid of No
And yet once more I failed.

That’s thrice, beyond hope.
But here I sit, late one night
Wondering what could have been
What should have been?

And I ask myself once more,
Is there a chance?
So I decided to send this to you
See your answer finally

And let you answer,
Probably with a No
But hopefully with a letter
Telling me all about your life

With that perfect guy,
So that I can know
That I didn't fail you at all,
That I just let you live your life