My other half

We used to be like brothers, hangout everyday and did the normal things that best friend did. Until one day all of that changed, I went outside and saw him there,he was dead.Why?Why?Why?. There is a big hole in my heart that can't close, so much pain and anger. I'm angry inside because i didn't get to say goodbye, why did they take my other half. Every night when i go to bed i think of how life would have been if he was here. I have so much anger in me that i can't even cry, I feel like crap inside that i cant even explain it. Why should i be alive. Things can change so fast , I can't stop thinking about the day that my best friend passed away.