How many times have I written this note?
How many times have I stood here with this knife?
So many…so many times
Why am I so scared to take my life?
I wish I were brave
I wish I could face all these lies
Why can no one tell?
Why do they never see the pain in my eyes?
I wish I could stay for you
I wish you really did care
I’m just too scared to stay
I know giving up wouldn’t be fair
But I can’t find another option
To get rid of all this pain
It goes, but it always manages to find me
In the dark my happiness it drains
I wish I could just run away
And affect none of you
But this life would always haunt me
I could never make it through
But as I write this note
I know it shall not be read
I know I will wait
Even if inside I am dead.
